It has been more than a month since my last blog post. I can still remember how giddy I was when I wrote my previous post. And yes I still feel giddy ❤
Two days after the post Mr. SD and I went out for a lunch date. I expected him to be awkward and all but he wasn't. He was the most talkative guy I know (well at least during the first date). But I thought he was cute with his effeminate mannerisms and his way of explaining things. I knew I like the Mr. SD I was virtually talking to but this Mr. SD talking animatedly in front of me is better - I thought to myself. We said our goodbyes then that night he asked me if we can officially be a couple. I set things straight mind you, I told him I can't give you all the time in the world because I have a kid I'm sure you understand AND don't demand any sexual interaction between us because I am not ready yet to have any sex with any guy at all. He was totally okay with the setup. He said he just wanted us to have some sort of definition.
Then things went "WEIRD" when I learned that his mom is not really happy with the idea of him dating a single mom. Well actually not just his mom but his WHOLE FAMILY. And I thought WTH, Mr. SD is a single dad it's not like he's a virgin or what. But the rational me came into view and the painful realization sunk in. The Philippine society frowns at single moms and his family is no different.
So we came to a compromise, if we want US to work then we'll lie low, take things extra slow and prove to everyone that we are able parents. I guess when time comes that we make a name for ourselves then everything will be easier.
But for now, let me enjoy the feeling of loving and being loved. I almost forgot how it felt like :)
